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I’m have something to share that is pretty neat!

In middle school I used to have the most inspiring teacher who organized a school “concert” for a band of young kids he knew and who he really liked. So our little cardboard school in the little cardboard town got together to listen to this band of 3 teenaged kids play for us who were probably no older than 16. I was about 10 or 11 at the time and that’s how I was introduced to alternative rock music. Ever since then I was hooked, I walked out of that little cardboard GYM and thought to my little self “Self, YOU JUST SAW A KICK ASS BAND WHO WILL BE FAMOUS!” but in a more G-rated way. I was so excited (and many people in my class were too) that I never fogot the band named Inward Eye and sometimes googled them to see when they would make it!

Turns out they wend on a US tour with Sum41 and many other bands that I don’t remember at this hour, went on the Canadian Juno awards, kept on playing for like 10 years and never stopped.

So the Olympics Closing Ceremony comes up yesterday (that I missed most of) and I find out that Inward Eye from the town I used to live in IS PLAYING IN THE CEREMONY! HELLO!

It is awesome to think that a teacher I used to know believed in these three teenaged brothers (playing in a garage) enough to introduce them to our tiny school and that I had this feeling that I would be seeing a LOT more of them in the future that I didn’t forget their name since about age 11. Now they play in front of millions of people worldwide at the Olympics, HOW INSANE IS THAT?!!

If you haven’t heard of them, here’s some of their stuff: (They have a uniquely aggressive, chant-like style but their skill is great!)

httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_2fCekF0-4

httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ljrNsm3SwI

httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8yP9WajeA0

I have to catch their show sometime.

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Another math assignment. I failed it. Who cares? I am not a calculus person.

I have been getting the feeling that everything and everyone around me is moving while I am completely idle. I begin class in the morning and finish off at night; meanwhile there is noisy life and motion all around me while I miss it. A train can be seen from the 5th floor view of the building I am in, above the roof of the building across from mine you can faintly see strings of cars buzzing by the trees as sunlight is brightly reflected.

Have you ever had a feeling that you want to run? Run from where you are and join the motion, join the chaos, and just join the life happening outside? Run and leave everything behind to do what you want instead of what you are “supposed” to?

I used to be a good little girl who went to class, did as I was told, never questioned anything and never wondered what was happening outside of my cute teensy world. Now I am bored, argumentative and at times highly resentful. At times I want out.

Everywhere I turn I get contorted faces and academia zombies stressing to me what my limit is, what I can and cannot do, what is possible and what is impossible.

I wonder how those people know my future better than I know it myself. Have they all had the time to run freely? Or have they too, missed it all and are only guessing about what that could be like? Never had taken a chance, always stayed on the safe side and always used caution and not enough imagination or chance. I never want to be like that. I would never want to look at someone and tell them that they cannot make their wish come true, that their chances are slim to none. No matter what a person’s dream, I would be cheering them on from the sidelines. I see no point in talking about obstacles; if that’s all you concentrate on then maybe you will never make it past your driveway.

I am sick of being evaluated, controlled and pushed to do something that even the evaluator doesn’t quite know how to bring across. You are pushed without knowing where you are going, but don’t you stop. If you stop then you won’t make it, they should know.